Courtney Hadwin never needed a stage to make a song feel like it belonged to you. In her recent TikTok, she sits at a simple table, the kind of place where secrets are told, and begins to sing “You Only Love Me When I Lie.” Sydnie sits quietly, bare-armed and eyes lowered, her voice trembling with both strength and vulnerability, inviting everyone to feel what she feels. You get the sense that every word is carved from experience, a confession too heavy to say out loud but impossible to keep inside.
There is a strange kind of courage in singing a song about being loved only for your mask. Courtney lets every line settle, her voice trailing between gritty ache and sudden brightness. Sometimes she leans in, almost whispering the pain; other times, her voice breaks open and you hear the fight behind the lyric. It is blues, it is rock, it is the story of every person who has tried to fit inside someone else’s idea of love. In these minutes, TikTok becomes less a platform and more a dim-lit room where truth can finally echo.
Courtney Hadwin You Only Love Me When I Lie
You can feel the comments coming in before the song ends. Fans thank her for singing what they have never dared to say. They share stories about loving the wrong people, hiding behind easy lies, or just needing a song that is not afraid to be messy. For some, it is a memory of hearing Courtney for the first time on America’s Got Talent; for others, it is a moment to feel seen, right now. A song like this turns fans into witnesses, and strangers into companions.
But a single TikTok is never the whole story. Click away, and you land in a world painted in shadows and neon, the official music video for “You Only Love Me When I Lie.” Now Courtney is the woman in the black dress, moving through frames with a kind of restless beauty. The production is sharp, the visuals as moody as the song deserves. The man in the pinstripe suit (Perry Villiers-Kendall) drifts in and out of focus, another ghost in the story of love and secrets.
Courtney Hadwin – You Only Love Me When I Lie (Official Music Video)
Here, every detail is deliberate. Courtney’s voice climbs and collapses with each chorus, the ache of truth and longing turning lyrics into bruises. The direction by Gabrielle Ornate and Orlando Avalon leans into the grit and glamour of classic rock but never lets go of Courtney’s raw soul. It is more than a breakup song, it is a demand to be loved as you are, lies and all.
People keep coming back to Courtney Hadwin for this exact reason. She refuses to sing from behind a wall. Every song, whether it is a table-top TikTok or a late-night music video, is a piece of the truth she is still learning to claim. There is always another verse, another confession, another chance to feel seen. Follow Courtney Hadwin on TikTok, Instagram, and YouTube because the next note might be exactly what you need to hear.